I have to admit something that some of you won't like: it was a relief not to get an offer for September. Yes, I was slightly disappointed when I found out calls were done, but a few hours later, I felt as though a burden had been lifted. I realized that some of my impatience with the kids was due to the stress of waiting.
Please don't hate me. I know how lucky I am to be in this position, likely to receive an offer within the next few months. But I'm not ready. I wasn't prepared to clear security so quickly, and I wasn't prepared to pass my Spanish test on the first try. So even though I made a house to-do list as soon as I passed the OA (I love lists!), I didn't really prioritize it. Well, perhaps the flood in the basement which derailed my decluttering plans wasn't my fault, but I also kept making plans with friends and generally not doing anything on the house.
So I am determined to prioritize it this time, because I don't want to feel this way at the end of August, too. I want to be ready to receive that email. If anyone out there needs motivation so you don't find yourself in my position, check out this great blog post.
The new plan means finding people to watch the kids for a few weekend mornings in August while both of us get to work. It means one of us taking the kids somewhere, so the other can focus. It means making lists and actually checking things off! And it means getting my husband to buy in. Are you with me, honey??
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No need to feel bad! I realized I felt relieved after I didn't pass the written test last year. We were already planning the transition between posts and I found out shortly after my test results that I was pregnant, so worrying about orals and language tests ended being the last thing I wanted to do this year. Sometimes these things happen for a reason. Make good use of your time while you have it!
I can totally understand that. We weren't ready either. That's why we bid on a DC position and are spending the year taking care of all the loose ends. It's not that we would have been unhappy if we had gotten an overseas post immediately, it just would have been a lot more stressful.
Best of luck attacking that to-do list!
There's never any shame in being content with where you are. In fact, many people pay lots of money to have someone try to tell them how to get there!
Its okay. I've felt the same way about things like this.
Oh the roller coaster. It is good to be flexible. On one hand, you are ready, on the other, it is better to wait. That happens a lot.
When we first bid, and it was okay, we are going to go here. Then I would get excited and start planning. Then my husband would come home and say, no we are not going there, we are going to go there, we are going here...it just happens. Being flexible really is the best way to be.
Good luck with everything.
Hey, thanks for the shout out! I'm sorry you didn't get the call for September (must've been all those Pickerings that got in the way?). Glad you feel good about it. Hope you are better able to motivate yourself to use that breathing room than I was!
thanks everyone for the supportive comments!
I like the referenced post. Time IS melting... I feel like I'm living in that famous Dali painting with the melting clocks. Well nothing like a little sense of urgency to get motivated! So enjoy, if you can, the calm before the storm!
I couldn't start in September either because of graduation issues, but hopefully we will both be in October!!!
Your blog is getting me excited for the FS too. It looks like you were part of the June cohort so exactly a year before me. I like the timeline, very helpful. I am sure you will hear soon. Anna
this is my first time commenting on your blog, and I just wanted to thank you for sharing your experience so openly. I completely understand your frustration, and I wish you the best for the October class!
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